rehearsal

Thoughts about life got heavier. It becomes an everyday exercise trying to pull up weights using the usual "things go in a certain way because they must!". Most of the times you find yourself in repeating this phrase several times only because you have to get used to have it in your perspectives of life (or of how life must appear). An exersice-yes! All this doesn't mean you have to agree with it. That is an obvious fact, infact. But life would get may be easier if you do....however....The truth is, when you use the former exercise, you're not going however to understand why things are going as they are. You wont. I'm not even sure if you really have to...May be you'd like to know it, and I would understand if you do, it is the same thing I would do either. It's normal. Many days I've spent blowing my head with why. I still do. Sometimes. But then I realise, and go on and on and on (almost as a punishment to myself) to repeat endlessly: things go in a certain way because they must.They must. They must. They must! And then I feel better. Apparently. I must.

                                                                                                                              nataliaandwarnings